~thelightofmyiman~

bismillahhirrahmannirrahim..in the name of god, the most gracious the most merciful. Alhamdulillah. Finally, semester 3 is over!! its really a relief!!but just thinking about getting through the final sem makes the body drained with adrenaline!!fuh..!!

just got home yesterday evening, almost everyone was already out of KMB, only a few was left including me(its kinda weird bcos yesterday most of the student who stayed was the ppl yg duduk dekat..huhu..)  Abah had to pick me up after office hour, so he ended up arriving just after maghrib, so before that i had the chance to chat with a junior. She lives in KL, shes also from a daily school when she was in form 4 and 5.. she was also waiting for her father to come pick her up so, we had a talk. We talked about ‘life in KMB’. As a senior obviously, i was the one who was doing the interrogation..(dialog di bwh bukan dialog sebenar, ttp the isi is there..hehe.)

“So, dah satu sem kat sini apa komen…?”

“Rase best sgt kat KMB ni, rase die sgt lain..keadaan kat sini sgt islamic, sebelum ni tak pernah pun dapat tau pasal benda2 islam ni..”(ayat die lebih kurg cam2 lah.”sebelum ni saya keluar tak pakai tudung, tapi bila saya dah pakai tudung kawan2 saya semua terkejut..”

As the one who was asking the question..i kinda understood what she meant and what she was going through.  As i was once like her. It made me think back on the things i was, and what i had found..to made me what and who i am today.

Living in a middle of a city, learning in a school where a lot of bad things is considered usual ( im not ‘kutuk’ing my school,but its the reality of the students there.) I didnt know @found the real beauty of islam.Alhamdulillah, my parent understood islam (they had their own usrah jugak mase kat US dulu), so they had nurtured their children as best as they can, making us cover our aurat starting from puberty, making sure that we didnt tinggalkan sembahyang, pergaulan..ect. all the basic things of being a muslim. So, i think back then i was obeying but i didnt understand.

So, being in a society which do not understands and didnt practice it, it didnt make things better. Although i know what are the things that can and cant be done but it didnt came from my understanding and penghayatan , its more to kebiasaan. I remembered back then there was a friend who called me ‘malaikat’as they said i was sgt baik. Thinking back now, my sgt baik mase tu is org yg tak tahu ape2, does not know why she is created in this world..and every time i went back home and go out to see and mix with the society, i start to understood why she said that. The society is rotting, and it made me sad that these ppl does not know the beauty of the truth.

My jiran sebelah bilik in college allways said to me everytime we encoutered this masalah2 social..”kalau derang tau kan iman, mesti derang nak kan..”as it is really a BEAUTIFUL thing and i hope insya Allah i can share it to the society.

So, the conclusion, being in KMB for almost 1 and a halfyear had really taught me a lot, and what i have right now, i hope i can beristiqamah with it.

If someone asked me what do i fell being and living in KMB??

“Alhamdulillah, i am really grateful about it.”

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